I loved these songs in 1992.
In 1993 they became funeral songs. Forever attached to my memories of that day, that time, the sudden loss and pain, the nightmares, the heartache. Attached forever to the memory of losing such an important person from my world.
Long after the nightmares stopped, the heartaches eased and I could breathe again, everything would be ok until I heard one of these songs. Then I would be a mess, it would all come back. If I was at a party, it would be the end of the party for me. If I was in the car, I would have to pull over. These songs owned me and snuck up on me when I least expected it and caused damage all over again.
These songs will never be the same again, but these days I can listen to them without breaking down. I can smile. I can enjoy them again and can remember enjoying them in 1992, with him, before the funeral, before he died.
Some people that read this blog will know the day, the songs, the person and I hope you have also reclaimed these songs and can listen with a smile…